无奈.

我还是很不习惯这里的生活......

什么事情都觉得很难很难...

甚至有时觉得自己被欺负...

"一粒米养百种人"说的很对...

在这里遇到各种各样的人...

总觉得自己很倒霉...

很常都要走路没巴士坐....

看着朋友一个个的先回家...

剩下自己,就觉得很难过...

你,是我最需要的人...

却在这时与我吵架...

大家都不愿意找对方...

就只因为我没在你身边而觉得自己很痛苦...

难道我就好过吗?

不痛苦吗?

难道上大学是一种错...?一种罪吗...?

我只是想试试看...

虽然我知道我做不来,但我还是想试试看...

可是我试的很辛苦...

我很累...

冲凉的时候,眼泪跟着洗澡水一起流下...

我分不清泪水与水...

只知道我已很努力在撑着...

真不知道自己到底是怎么了...

My new life.

I had been to Sabah for one week...
Life in university is not as easy as i think...
I still not used to it...
Many things i nid to do by myself....
Especially i nid to wash my clothes myself...
Sometimes i reli miss my mom lo....
Wana to eat wat she always cook...
Anyway,i think life at home with family n life at university with roomates is definitely different...
My home always is the best...

Bad day again.

I really hate to stay at school...
Another case happened on me again...

Mr Chin find me today...
He told me tat afternoon session's teacher said i crushed her car...
Walau,how come i crushed others car i also dunno...

Tat teacher really fierce...
She keep on asking me why i wan crushed her car?
She just bought the car two months ago...
I swear i din crushed her car...
We dunno each others,why i wan do so??
Why she wan to slander me??
Plus if i got do so,sure i will admit...
Plz dun bully me cz i still young or look a bit stupid...

I hate the feeling of being defamed...
I HATE IT!
Plz dun bully me just because i'm a temporarily teacher...
I got feelings too...

Wat i learn from dis incident is world is damn complicated,no matter where you are...

Kuching's trip

Yeah yeah~
I'm at kuching...
Went to Riverside Hotel for interview...
(UMS-Tourism course)
I think i spoilt my interview...
Dunno la~

1st time wear baju kurung... is tat suitable for me?

Pellisthing wit me...

inside Riverside Hotel...

waterfront of riverside...

Juliana wit me...

Anyway,thanks juliana for bring us visit many place of Kuching...
We enjoy the shopping also...

Bad day

Today meet wit a crazy teacher...
She scold me loudly in front of many students...
All because my student against her instruction...
I feel a bit "wu gu".......
Just stand there let her scold me...
And help my student apologise to her...
Damn ashamed....
She never give me face as a teacher...


p/s:go kuching tonite for interview...

Stop bully us!

身为一个大人...
你们不但没有尽到责任帮忙后辈...
没有指导后辈...
反而暗地里作弄,欺负我们...
这样一来你们很快乐吗?

嘴巴上像是给予指导帮助我们...
实际上,是将我们推想"死亡"之门...
让我们闯祸...
让我深深明白什么是笑里藏刀!

Bad mood.

I dunno wat happened to me...
Not even know wat the main cause...
Just felt moody...

Who should i share my bad mood wit??
Who should i talk wit??
WHO?
I dunno!

Nobody will understand me!
Yet i also nt understand wit myself!

Again.

Why keep argue on same topic??
I just wana further my study...
But not going to leave you...
Dun think so much...

I further study is for our own good...
I wan to see n know more things...
I know u will back to your place...
This would be better for you...
Can save money...
Try think on our future...

Dun worry...
I will be back...
Believe on our relationship...

Keep argue just make me feel annoying...
Make our relationship getting worst niah...
Dun u feel tired while we argue?

I know de reason u act so...
I really understand wat u thinking now...
But,...
STOP ARGUE!
STOP COOL-WAR!!

Argue again.

Arguements again...
Damn hate it...
Wat caused for arguements?

I went to school early in the morning...
Went back home around 6pm...
Cz meeting with our Pengetua,Mr Ling...
Damn tired dy...
Din sleep well for almost a week...

Tot of rest a while...
U called me suddenly...
Ask me:" you die til where?"
Lolz...
Made my mood getting bad...

Why our relationship getting worst?
Is tat cz of we together for 4 years?
Sometimes when we argue,
i can felt tat thr is no more strong feelings towards you...
Different like before...
WHY?

Dunno...

Fake face.

Is there any appearance of true friends?
Wat is the meaning of "true" friends?
I dunno...[tell me if u know]

Stop show-off in front me!
Stop bla-ing in front me!

I HATE IT!

Huh!

Hard-make-decision.

"Will you enter university?"
"Do you hope it?"
"No."
"Why?"
"Scare you will leave me."
"... ... ..."

Dear,now i'm given chance to further study...
I dun hope to waste the chance...
There only once n last chance for me in life...
Will you support me if i go?
Or will you just wana break up?

Is hard for me to make a decision.

Do you know...
Loving you is just like breathing,
how could i stop it?

love vs study = dunno!

I know you start to worry bout me...
Easily get mad at me...
When face to face with me,
you be so gentle to me...

Who can tell me how n wat to do?

坏心情.

拜六那天我们争吵了...
你连续对我说分手...要我离开你...
不知你是真心或故意...
撇开争吵的原因...
我选择离开...

在那之前,
我已经很烦恼...
爱情与面包...
该做何选择?
我不想放弃继续升学的机会...
更不想因此失去你...

我想鱼与熊掌兼得...
我知道 -不可能.

曾经问过你:
"如果我去读书,你因为孤单而爱上别人,
那我该怎么办?"
你说:
"那是你的选择,怨不得别人."

万箭刺入我脆弱的心... ='(

你又说:
"我整天都做工,休息天就在家打game...
基本上,没有什么可能...会因为孤单而爱
上别人应该是你吧?"
我回答说:
"我不知道...也许吧..."

明天就是答案公布的日子...
一切将会揭晓...

抉择.

自那天去了education fair...
我发现了一个很有趣的课程...
Nautical studies (航海学)

没有人支持我去读...
都说航海不是我想象中的那样简单...
况且又是常年生活在船上...
更加不适合女生...
尤其是结婚后无法兼顾家庭...

我不确定自己是否真的有兴趣...
一旦我选择了航海学...
一切都会变得不一样了...
我将会失去我现在所拥有的一切...
花费在form6的时间更是白费了...

我应该好好冷静想想自己要的是什么...
而不是别人要我做什么!
我的前途让我自己决定,好吗?

我怎么了?

这是否就是我所要的生活...?
老师的工作会不会不适合我?
我开始怀疑自己...
甚至自己的能力...
现在的一切一切...
跟我想象中的天差地远...

学生的叛逆...
办公室的人与事...
让我无法招架...
现实世界就是如此...
根本无法与所想象的比较...

想到我将来所要踏进的社会...
是如此的现实与残酷...
才发现我的天真...懦弱...
现在所面对的只是小小的挫折,
我已开始质疑自己...
那未来呢?

谁能教教我...??

Meaningless valentine's day.

2009年,我们度过了第4次的情人节...
今年,我过得既没意义又不开心...
就在214当天的11:59PM,
你让我流下最珍贵的眼泪...

原本我对今年的情人节,
不抱有任何期待与渴望...
就因为你在213说214会带我出去...
让我重燃希望...
还以为会有什么惊喜...
结果,真的是有惊无喜...

你不但没有送我礼物...
也没有烛光晚餐...
这些都还好...
[我了解我们的状况]
就连最基本的祝福都没有对我说...
祝福是不需要一分一毫...
需要的只是你的真心与诚意...
一句祝福胜过千言万语...

最可恶的是,
你会说214带我出去...
并不是因为情人节...而是...
约了朋友吃沙爹...[顺便带我,是吗?]
我的脸色顿时沉重...
绝对不是我小气...
因为是情人节,所以我在意...
虽然你的朋友后来没发信息来说join...
但心情被破坏就是被破坏了...

并非我发小姐脾气...
也不是非要去吃沙爹...
是为什么情人节要带你的朋友?!
最起码,先问我的意见先...

也许,是我们在一起太久了...
太常碰面黏在一起...
让你觉得情人节跟平时一样...
[因为我也有同感]
会不会因为这样,让我们不懂得珍惜对方?

[失去了才知道拥有的可贵]
真爱难寻...
要找到互相喜欢的...
更是艰难...
拥有了,就珍惜对方...
别等到失去了...
才来后悔...

愤怒!

今天...发生很多不愉快的事情...
我很:
难过...
失望...
伤心...
无助...
愤怒...

今早,我Form4H的学生...
让我流下了眼泪...
气愤的眼泪...
为什么:
上课不要好好上?
功课不要做?
都在说话聊天?
要ponteng?
你们可知道,老师准备了那么有趣的课...
带着愉快的心情准备教你们...
你们却面不改色吵了一节半...

我Form3Q的学生...
我点名时都在班上...
趁我在抄练习在黑板,偷跑出去...
有些的却在班上跑来跑去...
就在我责问一名同学为何没带课本时,
有另一名学生竟然用镜子偷窥我裙底...
还有一群学生湊热闹...
简直太过分了!
气得我跑去报告MR CHIN...

回到家跟家人说,没有任何人有在听...
他们没有任何反应...
就跟当年我六年级发生那件事一样...
后来,我学会...自己面对与承担自己的问题...
没有人会在乎我发生了什么事情...
从小到大都是这样...

i'm back!

Long times din update my blog edy...
Lately damn busy... Suckx~
Ya,i get my job dy...
Teacher...

I start teaching at 03 Feb 2009...
Many things nid to do...
Teaching, check exercise books,control classes,
write reports n so on...
Being a teacher is nt easy!

Today,my student (4s4) hide my shoe...
Zzz~ Better dun let me knw is who!
How come nowadays students tat naughty??
Can anyone tell me?!

你伤了我的心!

想起那天,你说:
"我没有收下VIVI的礼物..."
你坦荡荡的对我说,却又骗了我!
不仅仅伤了我的心,
还破坏了我对你的信任...

那天,我半信半疑听你说...
最后,选择相信你...
我以为你真的很爱我,
甚至为了我拒绝她的礼物...
原来,我太天真了!
以我对你的了解,打从开始...
我就不该相信你没有收下...

欺骗了就是欺骗了...
不必再说是善意的谎言...
伤害已经造成了...
最让我难过的是...
就连在解释的时候,
你也选择说谎,说你有还钱给她...

开始了一个谎言,
就要用更多的谎话来圆谎...
这个道理是对的...!

最可恶的是......
你竟打算把她送你的礼物
当成要送我的情人节礼物...
是女人都应该无法忍受吧?!
如果你真的送了,
我想你会被我一巴过去,
外加用那份礼物砸你!!!

是人都会说谎吧?
该原谅你吗...?
我不知道...
我只知道,不管有没有原谅你...
我的内心深处..................
已造成疙瘩...

别再欺骗我了,好吗?

To Grow With Love

内容:
这是一部关于一个来自菲律宾的胖女人(胡杏儿饰何美田)为了寻找属于自己真爱及心灵相通的伴侣二离乡背井来到香港...肥田喜欢的人(许志安饰戴喜)不喜欢她,还拥有女朋友了;而不喜欢的却又老是死缠烂打追求她...到底肥田会如何冲破重重困难和与自己心灵相通的爱人在一起呢?

评语:
对我而言,我觉得还不错...肥胖的人也有拥有爱及穿美丽衣服的权力...那幅太阳与向日葵的画,很有意思...太阳可以是日出也可以是日落...正所谓,凡事都有俩方面,只是看你怎样去看待一件事罢了...
正面与负面只是一线之差...
但是...
我是无法接受肥田介入戴喜与他女朋友(Rachel)之间的感情...毕竟他们都在一起四年了...又这样恩爱...肥田的介入与执着导致他们感情生变...我很佩服Rachel可以这样冷静的与戴喜分手...不过,总好过结婚后才发现自己的老公爱的是别人...
换做是我,四年的感情就这样没了,我会发疯的!也许还会做出什么恐怖的事情...我会恨背叛我的男朋友及介入的坏女人...
不过...
话说回来...站在肥田的立场,又不能怪她...每个人都渴望真爱...她能让戴喜改变心意爱上他,也许是证明了戴喜是不够爱Rachel的...
至于戴喜...
如果他已爱上肥田了却还跟Rachel结婚...到头来受到伤害的是三个人...说来说去还不是不能怪他...
不管他怎样做都错...
唉...我突然发现...感情里是没有对与错的...谈恋爱的风险还真高...分分钟会遍体磷伤...每段爱情的付出未必会得到结果...是你的就是你的,不是你的硬把他留在身边,受重伤的会是自己...希望这种事别发生在我身上...因为我是无法像Rachel这样冷静的...也许是会失去控制...

Accounting.

昨天是我读LCCI的第一天...
算是Short Course..
为期:5 months
费用:RM500
考试费:RM152
Book Keeping Level 1

天啊...
都是英文叻...
幸好...老师用华语解释...
老师为人还不错...
不会凶巴巴...

其实,
我是想了很久才决定去抱读的...
因为......
我是非常讨厌会计!!!
毕竟...我的头脑属于较简单...
无法接收复杂化的东西...

最后...我选择去了...
一半是为了学一技之长...
一半是有两个朋友壮胆...
[阿莲&恩慧]

上课后...
才发觉,我们三个里...
最差好象是我叻...
都不懂我的决定是否正确...

睡觉时嘴里还不停喃喃:
我是老板;家莲是公司;恩慧是会计小姐...
求神拜佛...
我的脑袋瓜转快点...
不然,肯定被家莲跟恩慧"围殴"...
唉...
真是没事找事做...

既然选择做了,
就坚持到底...
LCCI考试,就可以验收成果了...
^^