Thursday, March 31, 2011

Not need to be sorry, my friend. ^.^

My friend, is ok.
Not need to say sorry.
Indeed, facts are cruel.
What you said are all truth.
That's why i feel get hurt regarding what u told me.
I know that:
You just want me to be honest to myself.
You just want me to being myself.
You care on me cz I'm ur friend.
Dear girl, i know is my fault.
And I refused to accept them.
Therefore I keep on hiding true self in my little world.
As long as i'm not going to touch anything regarding to the past, every problems can just pass by like nothing.
In fact, I'm wrong. I hurt others in order to protect myself.
What you said is true. So what that little J said.
"You can lie the world, but the one you love will feel wat is ur true feeling."
"Every couple meet their own prob, just see how you guys solve it."

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

TRUMS Dinner Night 2011

27.03.2011
TRUMS Dinner Night 2011
Black & Gorgeously
Once we reach hotel, we went to toilet directly.
Took picture in Everly Hotel's toilet.
Love this picture so much.
My Tourism Geng.
Circus team.
With previous and present TRUMS Presidents.
My coursemates & schoolmates.
Food. Not bad.
HP08 Girl team.
Blackie Girls.
Lolx.
HP08 Group Photo for second year students with lecturers.
US!!
We all look special in our dinner night.
1. 1st time having heavy make up on my eyes part.
2. Is time to change bah,
while dinner should be different than usual.
3. Love her posing so much.
4. She looks so sexy but still with cool face.
5.Her eyes looks more attractive after make up.
6. She looks super mature and elegant.
For fulfilling my dear's request,
This is our Circus team's performance video.
Just for you. Try have a look.
I'm at the back but still can see my blurr face.
Dun laugh at me.

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

我

三月份的开始就意味着我会很忙
但只是没有想到比我想象中还要忙
没有一个周末是属于我自己的私人空间
让我快要顶不住想哭也哭不出来
累到一睡就昏睡了16个小时
三月份的生活还真的是多姿多彩
去了Labuan做interview
HP08 Dinner Night 2011
Circus Dance Performance
Short holiday with dear
Clubbing
等比较空闲会一一post上来
因为实在是没有多余的时间去upload那些pictures.
很烦
烦功课
烦成绩
烦金钱
烦体重
烦我们
没有一样东西是我不烦得
我以为我们很好
似乎是我自己觉得的
原来我都活在自己的世界里
从来没有出过来
不去提起不就没事了吗
难道不是这样吗
朋友
今天你的那句话真的很伤我的心
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妈妈,对不起
刚才我不应该对你发脾气
只是你的那句话伤到我了
我会好好照顾饮食
不会让体重继续上升
我知道你只是关心我的健康
担心我太胖没有人要
担心我一胖就胖到不能收拾
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才发现
越是事实的事情别人说了出来
我越是不能接受
才知道
我骗了自己
但终究骗不了别人
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躲在自己的世界里好听的说是保护自己
难听的说是自私是无形中的伤害了别人

Saturday, March 19, 2011

Nightmare.

昨天做了一个恐怖的恶梦
梦到自己遇到海啸
情境很真实恐怖
只知道自己背着小弟和爸爸
不停的跑不停的逃
和家人分开了
弟弟妹妹们不见了
妈妈不见了
当时我真的很害怕
真的真的真的很恐怖
在我最绝望的时候
以为自己要死的时候
拨通电话给他要和他道别
就这样醒了
差点来不及去考试
我不停的问自己:
“为什么会是[他]而不是他?”
“为什么在紧急关头的时候会是想起[他]?”
我纳闷~

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

决定了

原本上个星期六去的
基于日本大地震马来西亚政府也发出海啸警戒
在加上Labuan的风向海浪有一定的风险
只好取消了
随后本来换去Kota Belud做我们的research
听说当地很邪门有很多好兄弟
我是有点怕怕再加上其他原因
我不想和他们作朋友
不想同样的事情再发生
经过和partner的讨论终于决定了
这拜六319启程去Labuan的Homestay.
同一时间319会有超级月亮的出现
由于我们也是会担心自身的安全
所以也做了很多相关的research
所得到的结论:
我们都认为那天去Labuan不会有很大的问题
说完全不担心其实是骗人的
毕竟我还年轻好不好
还有很多事情都还没有尝试或做过
更不想克死异乡
要来的始终会来想多也没有用
不想了
到底什么是超级月亮?
据说319当晚月亮将到达19年来离地球最近的位置
月亮和地球的距离仅有35万6578公里
同时月亮会看起来异常巨大
月球和地球的近距离会使其之间的引力加大
使得地球板块长时间的累计压力
而这个压力弹簧将被引力触动
大家都很担心这样的景象是否又会带来灾难
1955,1974,1992,2005都曾经发生超级月亮
而且这几年都曾发生过一些天气极端的事件
大海啸 大台风 大地震 等等
这是相关的新闻
希望当天一切安好
最后让我们再次为日本的灾民祷告


Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Sabah Trade Centre.

Tourism geng went out again.
Purpose: Get the pictures show that you are going to BIMP-EAGA Expo.
For our Tourism Culture's mid-term.
Here's the pictures.
Sabah Trade Centre
Philipine exhibition part.
Self entertainment.
Answer the questionaires seriously.
Crafts
In front SPE booth.
Booth for Sabah Tourism Board.
I like the booklet which promote Sarawak.
It's special.
Booth for Labuan Corporation.
Asking the weather and waves for Labuan.
So far everything are going well.
Wondering wanna keep going on with the plan regarding
Labuan Homestay or not.
SPE booth.
Guess where are we. =P
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Qiang Qiang Qiang Qiang.
I'm at Hi Seoul Korean Restaurant.
Cat and Pellis.
Pellis's food.
牛肉锅
If not wrong la.
My food.
Forgot what name.
Drinks.
Orange juice & Aloe vera Juice.
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I took so many booklets, bouchers, flyers from the expo.
This is the proof that i went to BIMP-EAGA Expo at Sabah Trade Centre.


Monday, March 14, 2011

为了什么

忙了一天一夜终于忙好了
现在距离早上去上课也只有几个小时了
我也终于明白什么是BUSY LIKE HELL
忙到披头散发像个疯婆子毫无形象可言
我问自己这样辛苦为了什么把自己累垮了为了什么
我找不到一个答案
如此憔悴疲惫的脸
不停的打喷嚏让我的头很晕全身发冷
也许是打扫好房间满身大汗去冲凉的缘故

换了新的床单牛牛的哦
但我不喜欢这个颜色因为灰色给我的感觉是不开心咯
看到没有那个灰姑娘用来抹地的抹布渗了Dettol来消毒我的房间
天晓得晚上就有一只蟑螂来偷袭我香喷喷的人窝
还把在赶assignment的我给弄哭了
那么多assignments功课事情要赶我都没有奔溃
我真的很怕你因为你很肮脏
你不知道我有洁癖的是不是
新换好的床单又得洗了
刚抹好的地又用Dettol消毒一次了
只能说你赢了
Commercial Law's Presentation.
Partnership.

Tourism Intermediaries' outbound assignment.
Athens, Greece.
我再问自己:
为何那么执著于完美
为什么不能尽力就好
难道你不觉得累吗
我真的累但我更害怕我没有人家做的好
同时我也失去了很多时间



Saturday, March 12, 2011

11/03/2011

11/03/2011
七个月前的今天我失恋了
我难过到极点甚至尝试结束我的生命
此时在我的脑海里有的只有无数的难过悲伤心痛
脑海里有的只有我们6年来的画面
我的世界里有的只有你和我
全世界最惨的是我
不吃不喝不睡觉
只会哭
七个月后的今天
我看到新闻日本8.9大地震
马来西亚也发出警戒沙巴地带可能会发生海啸
顿时我还没有觉得什么还不停和朋友拿海啸来开玩笑
几个朋友还在那边玩拍什么最后一张照片
来隐藏我内心的不安

在大家忙着远离学校时,我们还在图书馆考试
这两只说可能这是最后一期拍的照片了
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当我回到宿舍时我开始担忧了
不停的打电话给我的教授要告知他有关明天去Labuan的事情
但他却没有接听电话
在assignment和我的朋友还有我的人生安全比较下
安全始终比较重要
我们私自决定不去了
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我觉得自己很傻
七个月前我被给予生命生存
但我却有意选择结束它
只因为一个抛弃我的男人
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七个月后我分分钟会面临可怕的海啸
但我不想就这样结束我的大好人生
只因为我担心家人为我难过
因为我应该是还有更美好的人生要继续
开始觉得自己很可笑
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我很开心当朋友们知道沙巴可能会面临海啸时
都致电给我劝我万事要小心有什么事情要通知他们
谢谢你们,我会小心的
梦璇,还是那句话:
“要来的始终躲不过”
Tommy还打电话给我叫我和他一起逃到Kundasang.
真的很谢谢你在危险的时候还会想起我
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最让我意外的一个很好的老朋友Michael Hee
谢谢你还记得你有一个朋友在沙巴这里
他告诉我科学家已证实2012
要我开开心心的活下去而不是为了生活而活下去
还说了一些日本大地震的事情给我听
至于海啸,还是那句话:
“要来的始终躲不过”
谢谢你的关心
I will appreciate it.
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我的Dear还更夸张
像我一定会发生什么事情那样
只差点没有大飞机票飞过来
还说要时不时会打电话给我
LOLX讲而已还不是没有
冒冷汗
哈哈
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最后就是我的家人了
我一直期盼他们打来关心我
同时我又不想他们打来因为怕他们担心我
结果他们竟然没有打来
气死我了
我也明白他们相信我会好好照顾自己
到了晚上终于忍不住了就打电话回去发飙
我说是不是要我随着海浪漂回家你们才想起还有个女儿啊
结果妹妹竟然笑翻去
幸好最后爸爸还有打电话过来
至少让我的内心平衡一点
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希望日本的灾情别再恶化了
希望海啸不会降临在沙巴
希望大家都平安无事
Let's pray for Japan!




Wednesday, March 09, 2011

终究

依然还是很心痛
依然还是忘不了
依然还是有感觉
依然还是有所期待
始终还是失望
始终还是难过
以为终究是以为
终究还是需要时间
想问:
“为何你可以如此潇洒与无情?”
“还是你不曾付出你的真心?”

Monday, March 07, 2011

Our ❤ Stories.

I did something which i never ever do before.
I allowed him to change my relationship status last night.
It's hard to believe that I allowed him to do so.
YES!!
❤ I'm now in a relationship with Walter Wong.❤
I feel different when each times I'm looking at my Facebook profile.
I dunno how to describe this sort of feeling.
I feel paiseh and faceless but happy.
It's quite complicated.
[Paiseh & faceless not because of you not good enough
but just my weird style, you know?]
See how good am I with you?
Put aside the nonsense problem of face.
In order to release your unsecure feeling.
Dunno since when I started to care about your feelings.
❤ My dear ❤
Your feelings are much more important than everythings.

Sunday, March 06, 2011

Unexpected.

You make me feel unexpected and suprising.
There is no much to tell about my feelings.
Let it be in my heart.
Should be more than enough.
I will take care.
You too.

A dream with a ring.

While i'm searching certain picture for my blog post,
I saw the picture of a RING.
It should not be anything special.
Right?
Kind of familiar images flashed by my mind suddenly.
Is regarding to a dream with a ring.
I just realiased that I had a dream last night.
In the dream there was a guy with a ring.
GOSH!!!
I managed to see who are that stupid guy.
I forgot the details of the dream.
The bad thing is
I'm remember him!!!
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Saturday, March 05, 2011

烦啊!











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冬粉鸡汤

在最心烦的时候
做一些自己想做的事
同时也可以让自己开心的事
也是其中一个让自己放松的方式
今天我到超市买了一些材料准备熬鸡汤
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卖相似乎还不错哦
鸡肉也都有熬熟
有没有看到流口水叻
这鸡汤的味道就熬得还不错啦
[本人认为的啦]
这就是我所使用的药材
我还是觉得Sarikei的药材是最好的
可能是从小吃到大的原因吧
突然很想念妈妈的鸡汤哦
还是妈妈的鸡汤最有味道最好喝最温暖的
有点想家了


Friday, March 04, 2011

Tourism Photo Session.

学校的一年一度的“班级”拍照日又来咯
大家都打扮美美去拍照叻
平时不化妆的女孩们
竟然会为了这天
化妆
但这些女孩们不包括我
哈哈哈哈
出门前自恋一下

Miss Khaw & me
Miss Lee Choo & me
Miss Catherine & me
Miss Esther and us

Tourism boys
Action ni
Haha






HP08
Tourism Management Geng
I'm glad to be yours coursemate.
^.^
Love you all