Countdown.

今天是2008年的最后一天...
时间过的真快...
Hubby说今天晚上会带我去倒数...
和看烟花...
真让我惊喜又意外...

晚上...
陪妹妹看好衣服...
就到Parkcity Mall等Hubby放工...
边等边看Mall当晚所准备的节目...
OMG...
节目都很烂!
除了舞蹈协会跳的舞...
哈哈...
至于我妹最欣赏的"suffer"舞...
我本人是看没有...都不懂在跳什么...
==...==...==...==...==...==...==...==...==
终于...
12.00AM要到了...
5
4
3
2
1
BANG BANG BANG...
美丽的烟花出现在我们的眼前...
有笑脸的...有圆形的...很多很多...
Hubby就忙着录下这美丽的时刻...

看回Hubby所录的影片...
还是觉得...
现场看的烟花还是比较美丽...
希望明年还能跟Hubby一起倒数及观赏烟花...

新一年的到来,
我希望我的愿望会成真...
事事顺利...得心应手...
祝福Hubby不好的事情都远离他...
在也没有金钱的烦恼...
工作上遇到贵人提拔...
一路上升官发财...
哈哈...
祝福身边的人身体健康...^^

一份他不该收的礼物.

今天,hubby又offday了...
无意中,
我在他的电话里发现一些信息...
不经意的,
我发现VIVI前几天送了一份礼物给他...

此外,
我注意到VIVI和BETTY发的祝福信息,
或普通信息,他都会回复...
每逢什么节日,
他也都会发信息给他们,尤其是VIVI...
他曾经在凌晨12.00AM发圣诞节快乐的信息给VIVI...

当初我们刚在一起的时候,
他都会发类似的信息给我...
现在却是发别人...
我在同样是凌晨的时间发圣诞节的信息给他...
他都没有跟我说圣诞节节快乐...
我看了是如此的辛酸??
他凭什么在那样的时间发那样的信息给VIVI
而不是发给我这个女朋友...?
我很懊恼...
就这样,我一个人躲在角落哭了...
他就顾着打game没有理我...

话说回去,
那份礼物的事...
我问了他...
他说VIVI每个人都有给礼物...
但他已经把礼物退回给VIVI...
因为他说那不是他该收的礼物...
VIVI送了一个巧克力加上一个杯子...
杯子还刻有"I love you"的字眼...
VIVI还神神秘秘的把礼物锁在他的locker里...
Hubby还说,每个人的礼物都一样的...
就他的不一样...

VIVI很早就跟他说买错礼物...
既然知道自己买错礼物,
那为什么还要送出去??
这不就意味着什么吗...?

以女人的直觉,
我觉得VIVI的举动怪怪的....
我怀疑她喜欢hubby...
只是没有有力的证据证明罢了...
但hubby说没有什么的....
他就是不相信我身为女人的直觉...
他说,不会再打电话跟发信息给VIVI了...
希望他说到做到...

其实我有吓到...
他说不再打给VIVI...
是不是说他很常打给她呢...?
唉~
最气人的是,
他说不打给VIVI和发信息的原因....
不是因为怕我担心或顾虑到我的感受...
而是VIVI很少回他信息...
而且...VIVI的电话太小声...
听不到她说话...

真的气死我了...
岂有此理...
那是不是说...
如果VIVI很会回复信息,
他就会跟她msg???
VIVI电话声音大声,
就会很常打给她...?

有时候我真的不知道这个男人心里想的是什么...
甚至他还爱不爱我...
我最讨厌这种暧昧的关系...
安安份份爱一个人很难吗??
为什么我做的到,你却做不到...??
爱情就是如此的不公平...

全心全意的付出,
未必得到100%的回应...
甚至都得不到任何回报...

疲累.

这几天都很忙...
忙上忙下的...
搞的全身都很痛...
整个人好累好累...

收拾家里...
迎接2009年的到来...
旧的东西统统都丢掉...
还能用的当然留下来咯...
人家重感情嘛...

最近很多心事...
但不知道该从何说起...
也不知道要找谁诉说...
就连在部落格里,
我都不想...
甚至不懂该如何用文字描写我当下的心情...

也许会有好一段时间不会update my blog...

临教...记者...书记...

临教...
填了那么多表格...
交了那么多表格...
一点回复都没有...
其实当临教,工资优厚,工作时间短...
可以多点时间陪老公哦...
虽然工资优厚,但三个月才领一次薪水哦...

记者...
是我小学时代的志愿...
听说工资不比临教差...
或许工作时间会比临教长咯...
很多人都不支持我做...
他们说:
*需要整天往外跑...
*日晒雨淋...
*危险...
*最重要的是...我很糊涂...
怕我做不来...
我也是有点怕怕的...
但又想挑战叻...

抱馆的书记...
整天都在Office里...
他们都说女生本来就该做这样的工作...
可是我不喜欢哦...
我的性格天生就是爱往外跑哦...
工资就没临教和记者这样优厚咯...
搞不好就几百而已哦...
唉....

怎么办...
每份工作都有好有坏哦...
到底哪份工作适合我叻..?
有谁可以告诉我呢...?

Wedding dinner.

Just bak from my neighbour's wedding dinner...
Well... Quite a boring dinner...
No any interesting entertainments...
Just eat eat n eat niah...

I met with a cute uncle...
He like to say "dao li"...
But wat he said, reasonable too...
Though he loso a bit,but i agree bout wat he had said...

My mom said the bridegroom very handsome...
I disagree...
My hubby more handsome than him...
The bridegroom a bit same v my hubby...
Hiak hiak...
As slim as a bamboo stick...
The bride very beautiful...
Erm,how bout me when i get marry one day??
Will i look tat beautiful??
Haha...
[think too much]

Saw something i dun like.

Today i went to parkcity mall with ah lien...
I saw something unbelievable...
HUBBY WAS FETCHING OTHER GAL...
THEY SEEM TALKED HAPPILY IN THE CAR...
I rushed to another roadside in order to block them...
But,i din get them...

I call him ASAP...
Asked him who is tat gal!
He said he went to bank with ppl of the same work...
Yes,he ever told me tat he will send worker to bank...
Cz can claim company...

OMG...
Wat happened to me???
I worry he is going to bank with vivi...
I definitely dun like vivi from starting...
She was showing a bad manner
while i'm asking her bout a book at popular...
After searching,she just went away...
Without telling me whether got that book or not...
For me,we should not treat customers like that...
Dun you think so??

The moment i saw hubby's car got other gal...
I'M HEART-BROKEN...
He ever said:
[The right in-front passenger seat only available for me]
But now,i saw other gal sit on my seat...
I dun like...
I felt the seat was dirty...
I dun wan share my things with others...
WAT'S GOING ON WITH ME???

When hubby bak from work,
i went to his house...
I ask bout the incident...
He also explained bout it...
But i still think too much...
Scare he was lied me...
Well...
I really dunno wat's going on with me...

Why i became like that??
Why i wanna over care bout tat vivi???
WHO IS SHE???

Why?? why her again?

Hubby off again...
I found tat he msg with vivi again...
He msg her said :
[msg me if u wan me fetch u from airport]
She called him also while at Kuching's airport...

My face changed while i read the msg...
I getting down when heard she called him...
I dunno wat else should i impress...
My altitude changed suddenly...
Refuse to eat,drink n talk...

Though i act like this,he still treat me patiently...
Keep asking me wat happened???
Tot i'm sick or stomache...
Feed me eat though i say dun wan eat...
Human's endurance is limited...
Finally he said:
[u wan wat just say,dun act like this...
i tired to see n dun wan see ur face which
look like sick ppl or wanna die face]

I cried alone at toilet...
U know???
Wat u did,hurt me edy...
U knw???
U never knw it!!!
U just knw to say i think too much...
W-H-Y???

Finally i asked whether he wan went airport pick ppl??
He said "NO"... n :
[I wrote the msg like tat doesnt mean i nid to do so]
He wil oni pick them if can claim company...
He asked y i wan to think tat much???
Made myself suffer??

I dunno...
Dun u think tat u caused me think tat much??
YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME UNSECURE!!!

Sorry, Adeline....

Adeline,u angry me,rite???
I'm sorry...
For cant been ur witness...
Tat day i really nid accompany mic's family...
I cant leave them behind...
I wan give good impressions to them...

Though mic treat me nt tat gud,
always hurt me...
But,his family din hurt me...
Hope u understand me...

Why u dun wan reply my msg???
I worry...
Scare to lost u this good friends...
I dun have many friends...
Only u willing to accompany me while i sad...
Be a good listener...

I cant even sleep cz this matter...
Forgive me, adeline...
Can??

Hubby's family come...

Today hubby's family come to btu...
I had to accompany them...
[hubby was working]
I became their tour guide...
Brought them:
visited their relatives's house...
ate at Farley...
went parkcity mall...
went pasar malam...
etc...

Hubby's mom really energetic...
Wanna went here n thr...
I edy tired yet i'm younger than her...
Quite happy to accompany them...
They all friendly...

Talked lotz with szeei...
We quite matching...
Maybe age problem gua...
She really pro in playing xdo...
Interesting to see her play...

Hope they like my service...
Really scare they complain me oh...
='(

Bad LIAR...

Lied again and again...
W-H-Y???
Why u lied me that:
*Ur hp no credits liaw???
*Ur sis help u bought reload card
W-h-y x1000000..........
Is that dun wan msg v me??
Or dun wan i disturb you??
WHO AM I FOR YOU???

U made me confused...
Dunno wat else you lie me...
Dunno how to believe u...
Should i believe u again???
U really din msg v Vivi again???
Arrggh~
U make me headache...

Should i reconsider our long-term relationship???
I hate ppl lie me,especially YOU!!!
Honest is better than lying!
Maybe is i nt enough good...
Should i just let go u???
Break up???
I DUNNO............


p/s: thanks for accompany me whole nite [s***i]
i'm feeling better edy...

Love problem...

Lately too many things happened…
Just no chance for me to tell…
I’m too busy with my exam…
N my internet line got problem…

I ask hubby bout tat gal face to face…
He said tat gal is nt outlet head but cashier…
Her name is vivi…
He said they like to kacau each others niah…
Both of them only staff n no more than that…
“Disturbing” is has a dangerous meaning for me…
Disturbing will led them to the door of love…
But,I choose to believe him…

By the moment,she msg him again…
I asked who msg him…
He said character buyer…
But I din found the msg…
I kept asking…cz I know he lie me…
He delete the msg in front me…!!
i’m not tat stupid…
you know how hurt am i??
I wan break up with him…
I ever told him, honest better than lying…
Why you choose to lie??????
I cant believe you anymore…
We keep argue bout it…
I felt hopeless…cz he felt he no wrong…
He din lie…tats not lie…

You dun like I msg with guys,
Why you still msg with gals??
Dun give me any excuse tat she is admin,
Nid good a bit with her…
So this so that…
I dunno how to protect the our relationship…
I less confident on it …
I dunno wat should I do…
If can, I would like to choose being single…
I dun wan to say more bout it…
You know,
The most I ask,the more u lie…
The more I get hurt…
I feel very very very………….
TIRED…

Bored~

Today is second days of holidays…
Damn boring to stay at home…
Feel like a living corpse…
There is nothing to do…
I hate do housework compare with working n study…
When this sort of life will end???
Please get me a job ASAP…
P-L-E-A-S-E……….

Finish STPM liaw...

Today is last day for exam STPM…
I feel confused…
Happy,
Cz finish exam…
Finally holidays…
Sad,
Cz graduate = jobless…
Need find job actively…
[job difficult to find]
I pray my result will not too bad…
Pass all the subjects…
Qualify to get in university…
May God bless me…

Poor friend...

Today I receive a call from my best friend…
[I cant tell who is she,unless get permission from her]
She cried…
She keep crying…
I feel worry bout her…
She tell me that she quarrel with her boyfriend…
Cz of small kidding…
He leave her alone at the shop n go…
I accompany her…we go to beach…
1st time I see she cried sadly…
She really love him very very much…
As how I love my hubby before…
Hope they ok soon…
Dear friend,dun worry…
Dun cry too…I will also by your side…