Getting better

Yesterday damn down...
Big cried... Shouted...
Cut my hand...
Cant even cool myself down...
Even called hubby,he dun even wan to hiew me...
Hang up my phone...
He hate my negative thinking...
Lolz...
I hate myself too...
Easily influence by others...

I'm feel happy n thankful...
At least still got you concern me, adeline...

Anyway i'm getting better today...
But, disgusting language come out from ur mouth again...
[ no matter how hard you tried,you wont be better than your brother...
bla bla bla bla and so on]
Hurt me once again...
Haih~

I really worry what you said will come true...
You give me lotz of stress...
W-H-Y???