下一站,幸福.

光晞努力为慕橙澄清她的清白~

离开光晞后,独自带大与心爱男人所生的儿子,小乐~

光晞恢复记忆后在华田村意外遇到慕橙母子团圆~

有些人的人生，是直达車...

有些人卻是慢車，中间总要经过许多站，经历许多人...

有人总是下错站，坐过头，不是错失了窗外風景，就是错过了身旁的人...

沒有人知道，能陪自己坐到終点站的人，究竟会是谁...

相爱的人，真的就能一路到达人生的终点站嗎？

慕橙,

一個不知道自己會在哪一站下車，也不敢任意在車上睡著的女孩...

光晞,

卻是一个只能坐上由司机专车接送到目的地，无法決定自己人生方向的人...

这是一个关于他們的故事～

下一站,幸福...

真的是一部很好看的连续剧...

慕橙与光晞的爱情故事...

真的很令我感动...甚至掉下眼泪...

刚开始爱上对方,光晞却发现自己患上脑癌...

就决定离开慕橙...

慕橙得知实情,不但不离开,还不离不弃照顾着他...

没想到,光晞母却逼慕橙离开...

为了让自己心爱的男人可以活下去,

只好忍痛离开...

离开后的慕橙却意外发现自己怀孕了...

想知道他们的故事,就去追看吧!

绝对值得一看~

我的下一站幸福...会出现在哪里...?

我的幸福,会直达到站吗?

我又会不会下错站?错过了一个深爱自己的人?

我几时才有勇气可以谈一场轰轰烈烈的爱情?

可以毫无保留和顾虑的去爱?

Haix~

Insomia.

我的人生怎么了?
忘了从几时开始,我的时间开始和别人不一样...
日夜颠倒...

我开始忘了:
*有多少个夜晚,我没有睡觉了...
*多久没有看书,温习功课了...
*赶做呕心沥血的assignments...
*多久没有早起赶去上课...
*考试紧张的感觉...
*自己到底是怎么了...
*忘了,每天早上那个充满希望去上课的自己...

现在的我,剩下的只有行尸走肉的自己...
把自己关在家里...
每天问自己:"我怎么了?", "什么才是我想要的?"...
我真的不知道...
Haix...

为什么人类总是这样的?
当你很忙碌的时候,就很渴望几时可以休息...
当你很空闲的时候,就想要有个东西在忙碌...
人,总是在失去后,才觉得可惜...
人,总是在错过了,才觉得后悔...

失去后,才懂得珍惜,有用吗?
我不知道...
因为我不曾失去过任何重要的东西...
除了他...

"他"的影子时不时出现在我的脑海里...
如果"他"还可以回来我的身边,那该多好?
到他走的那一天,我才发现...
原来我们从来没有过两个人的合照...
没有!
那是多么讽刺的一件事啊!

直到他走的那天,
我才发现,我答应你的事情统统都还没有做到...
如果时间可以倒流,那该多好...

希望"他"在天国过得很好~
我永远爱你!

Get crazy!

Jeong Ji-hun (정지훈) a.k.a Rain (비)

Well, my little bro always look funny when took pic...

He used to put funny pose...

Sometimes act cute also...

Actually he dun wan to take pic de...

Hehehe, i forced him! ^^

Faces which are showing by my two bro...

*foolish beat*

Now the story start~

First,we want to watch the movie of 2012 at 6.30pm…
We reached cinema at 6pm…
Unfortunately that we were told that the movie at 6.30pm is Cloudy Meatball…

I asked why the showing times were totally different with the times which advertised in the newspaper?
The worker answered rudely:” the newpapers write wrong la”
OMG! This is the way you showed to a consumer?!? WORST!
Thus,we forced to change our movie to Ninja Assassin at 7.15pm…
Three of us just waited like noob kia…

I wonder that Bintulu Cinema is worst!
It was very dirty inside the cinema hall…
Many rubbish around the floor!
Not only that,Ninja Assassin supposed be on at 7.15pm…
But they keep hold off the time!
There is no sense of time!
Finally the movie started after 15 minutes.

I wont go to Bintulu Cinema again!

Hope there will be new and big cinema in Bintulu soon~

Let us back to the movie [Ninja Assasin]

Wow,this is an quite nice and interesting movie!

Full with bloody actions! Cruel!

I like it so much...

The main actor of tis movie is Rain...

His muscles really... Muscular man!

Feel wana to touch his muscles!

Actually i dunno the actor is Rain...

Until the movie finished...

We were discussing the movie and i ask who is tat actor?

My bro wanna to beat me...

Rain is really a popular artist yet i not even know...

Haix...

I think i nid to have some up-date...

无聊的一天.

很难得今天我早起...
因为有人请我喝早茶... ^^
七点起身,八点出发...




这些都是我最爱吃的点心哦!
猜猜是谁点的?
果然很有我心哦~

我点了猪肉粥...
上次跟朋友来吃后,还想再吃...
但绝对不是因为很好吃...
只是很想吃罢了~ *废*

这次,我不在order冷饮了...
婉芊阿姨说吃油腻的东西,
最好别喝冷饮...
喝热饮可以可以燃烧油腻的脂肪...

很开心的,
下午又有人请客...
我们就在marry brown 吃东西...
这次我还是喝热饮及吃少量的东西...

很难过的,我在星光秤了我的体重...
结果是56kg!!!
我的天啊!
没法子了,我已经是个可爱的小胖妹...
Doreamon第二代...
[第一代是jolene] *哈哈哈哈*

没关系...
晚上,我和家人全体出动去打羽毛球...
我整整打了两个小时...
打到没有力挥球...累垮了!

很难过的,回到家被我小弟引诱...
我又吃了宵夜...
臭弟弟,还嫌我不够肥啊!
一直引诱我!

唉,看来我的减肥计划可能会不了了之~
快快让我瘦下来吧!

Let us 38.

Hahaha~Paterns they sleep...

UMS students go buy TOTO...

Pellisthing gt join dem...with sponsor some money...

Ah Chee sponsor idea of number...

Chee wee go buy...

His face so indecency while checking the ticket...

Pellisthing sooo noob...

Use broom to play badminton...

Ah Lan,everydays oni know eat McD niah~

Batik batik... So pitty see Moyu n Pellis rush for batik...

Yeah~ xiao ai n ah bo married le~

See,now they laying on bed~

[wan to do wat ler?]

Make new xiao xiao ai~

Who is tat sengeh gal who show her legs?

HIHIHI~

That loong hui very "zi lian" also...

Hiak hiak~

Food.

I miss dis lokan very much~ *delicious*

I like the food at kingfisher! *yummy*

Tuaran laksa mihun...*yummy yummy*

Lol...U know wat is this?? [roti canai planta]
What i can said, reli " teruk"...

Sarawak's roti canai planta most delicious!

mee golok~ expensive oo...if compare v Btu...

paiseh la...

porridge which cooked by myself in the hostel...

This is lovely dinner which bought by Loong Hui ^^

Porridge which cooked by Loong Hui while i sick...

Yeah,i know...seem look like rice den porridge...

roti canai kosong at cafe CD...

Nasi goreng at cafe CD...

forget its name~ hahaha

chicken chop mee...

my favoutite also...

i had ate it for one month b4...

hiak hiak...

This are what i ate at kk...

Haix... Pitty,izit??

Poor people's life is like that lo... *sob*

Hope next sem can eat better food...

^^

生日快乐！

我们特地为辉哥租的车噢~

龙辉跟阿兰好像一对小孩子的情侣哦~

龙辉甜丝丝的样子~*sweet*

猜猜看谁是最年轻的？？

超好吃！

好吃好吃！

15/11/09 是我们家的龙辉21岁生日哦~

虽然已经21岁，依旧是个娃娃脸...

长大了,不可以在随便哭哭啼啼了...

为了你的生日,我们几个女生可说是荷包大出血哦...

当然,要不是看你平时对我们照顾有加...

我们才不理你呢~*哈哈哈哈*

最后...

生日快乐!

龙辉~

不开心.

地球不会因为任何人而停止旋转...

时间不会因为任何人而停止走动...

也许,

人类也不应该因为一些人而停下脚步...

不应该因为害怕失去而难过...

越在乎一个人,一件事...

只会让自己更容易失去...

就好象...

紧握住的沙...


近来发生了很多事情,

让我觉得很不开心...很累...很难过...

甚至很想要找个地洞把自己藏起来...

因为我再也没有可以倾诉的对象了...

我又打回原形了...

我...是...一...个...人...!

我...是...孤...独...的...！

随着地球的旋转,时间的流逝...


许多的人,事物都在不停的进化与改变...

不由得我不相信与接受...

因为我也是改变着的其中一个人...

把自己藏起来是最好的方法...

说难听一点,是遇到问题不愿意去解决...

只知道说"我不知道..."

我真的真的不知道!


你们还是以前的你们吗???

我们还会像以前那样吗???

还是...

我们回不到过去了...


可是,

我真的很在乎你们...

尤其是你!

考完试了.

艰难的日子终于熬过了...
考试的日子真的是度日如年啊!
接下来,就要收拾行李回家咯...
但是,没有特别的兴奋与期待...
因为,我没有想要留下来...
也没有想回去...

今天带着不是很开心的心情去考试...
[最后一张考卷=>sukan bicycle]
没想到,不到一个小时我就出来了...
奇迹哦! *我也这么觉得*

本来考试前有很多去玩耍的计划的...
还很兴奋呢!
但是,当真的考完了,
却没有想象中的那样好心情...

虽然如此,
我们还是去了UMS大学生最爱去的地方...
[One Borneo Hypermall]
我们漫无目地的随便逛逛...

结果,我们去了爱滋病展览...
我们亲身体验了病患所历练的一切...
感觉还挺不错...
让我很有感触...
顿时还想起当初我在柬埔寨所历经的一切...

[我们爱滋病的检验报告:

模渝患上了,我平安无事...]

*一切是展览效果*

我希望这些病患不要因此而感到气馁...

难过...觉得被社会唾弃...

真心的祝福他们...

希望他们继续努力加油...

为了明天的到来而努力生存下去!

我也会好好的努力活下去!'

加油!!!

An update- Feelings.

Yes,i din update my blog for few months...

Now let me have some update...

Pour out everythings... ... which:

not good.

not happy.

not comfortable.

Feel like:

myself is not suitable for this world...

everythings are difficult for me...

reluctant to stay here...

Not suitable to have:

love...

family...

friends...

What happened with me?

Lately mood damn upset...

I also dunno...

If someone know,plz tel me...

university life.

University life......
For me is damn like hell....
There are too many assignments for me!
None stop!!!
I dun even have enough time to have my rest...

And,there is always less bus for us....
Just like today i need to wait for almost two hours...
2 HOURS... Then i get my bus to library...

Soooooo....... SUFFER!!!
Get me back home!

无奈.

我还是很不习惯这里的生活......

什么事情都觉得很难很难...

甚至有时觉得自己被欺负...

"一粒米养百种人"说的很对...

在这里遇到各种各样的人...

总觉得自己很倒霉...

很常都要走路没巴士坐....

看着朋友一个个的先回家...

剩下自己,就觉得很难过...

你,是我最需要的人...

却在这时与我吵架...

大家都不愿意找对方...

就只因为我没在你身边而觉得自己很痛苦...

难道我就好过吗?

不痛苦吗?

难道上大学是一种错...?一种罪吗...?

我只是想试试看...

虽然我知道我做不来,但我还是想试试看...

可是我试的很辛苦...

我很累...

冲凉的时候,眼泪跟着洗澡水一起流下...

我分不清泪水与水...

只知道我已很努力在撑着...

真不知道自己到底是怎么了...

My new life.

I had been to Sabah for one week...
Life in university is not as easy as i think...
I still not used to it...
Many things i nid to do by myself....
Especially i nid to wash my clothes myself...
Sometimes i reli miss my mom lo....
Wana to eat wat she always cook...
Anyway,i think life at home with family n life at university with roomates is definitely different...
My home always is the best...

Bad day again.

I really hate to stay at school...
Another case happened on me again...

Mr Chin find me today...
He told me tat afternoon session's teacher said i crushed her car...
Walau,how come i crushed others car i also dunno...

Tat teacher really fierce...
She keep on asking me why i wan crushed her car?
She just bought the car two months ago...
I swear i din crushed her car...
We dunno each others,why i wan do so??
Why she wan to slander me??
Plus if i got do so,sure i will admit...
Plz dun bully me cz i still young or look a bit stupid...

I hate the feeling of being defamed...
I HATE IT!
Plz dun bully me just because i'm a temporarily teacher...
I got feelings too...

Wat i learn from dis incident is world is damn complicated,no matter where you are...

Kuching's trip

Yeah yeah~
I'm at kuching...
Went to Riverside Hotel for interview...
(UMS-Tourism course)
I think i spoilt my interview...
Dunno la~

1st time wear baju kurung... is tat suitable for me?

Pellisthing wit me...

inside Riverside Hotel...

waterfront of riverside...

Juliana wit me...

Anyway,thanks juliana for bring us visit many place of Kuching...
We enjoy the shopping also...

Bad day

Today meet wit a crazy teacher...
She scold me loudly in front of many students...
All because my student against her instruction...
I feel a bit "wu gu".......
Just stand there let her scold me...
And help my student apologise to her...
Damn ashamed....
She never give me face as a teacher...


p/s:go kuching tonite for interview...

Stop bully us!

身为一个大人...
你们不但没有尽到责任帮忙后辈...
没有指导后辈...
反而暗地里作弄,欺负我们...
这样一来你们很快乐吗?

嘴巴上像是给予指导帮助我们...
实际上,是将我们推想"死亡"之门...
让我们闯祸...
让我深深明白什么是笑里藏刀!

Bad mood.

I dunno wat happened to me...
Not even know wat the main cause...
Just felt moody...

Who should i share my bad mood wit??
Who should i talk wit??
WHO?
I dunno!

Nobody will understand me!
Yet i also nt understand wit myself!

Again.

Why keep argue on same topic??
I just wana further my study...
But not going to leave you...
Dun think so much...

I further study is for our own good...
I wan to see n know more things...
I know u will back to your place...
This would be better for you...
Can save money...
Try think on our future...

Dun worry...
I will be back...
Believe on our relationship...

Keep argue just make me feel annoying...
Make our relationship getting worst niah...
Dun u feel tired while we argue?

I know de reason u act so...
I really understand wat u thinking now...
But,...
STOP ARGUE!
STOP COOL-WAR!!

Argue again.

Arguements again...
Damn hate it...
Wat caused for arguements?

I went to school early in the morning...
Went back home around 6pm...
Cz meeting with our Pengetua,Mr Ling...
Damn tired dy...
Din sleep well for almost a week...

Tot of rest a while...
U called me suddenly...
Ask me:" you die til where?"
Lolz...
Made my mood getting bad...

Why our relationship getting worst?
Is tat cz of we together for 4 years?
Sometimes when we argue,
i can felt tat thr is no more strong feelings towards you...
Different like before...
WHY?

Dunno...

Fake face.

Is there any appearance of true friends?
Wat is the meaning of "true" friends?
I dunno...[tell me if u know]

Stop show-off in front me!
Stop bla-ing in front me!

I HATE IT!

Huh!

Hard-make-decision.

"Will you enter university?"
"Do you hope it?"
"No."
"Why?"
"Scare you will leave me."
"... ... ..."

Dear,now i'm given chance to further study...
I dun hope to waste the chance...
There only once n last chance for me in life...
Will you support me if i go?
Or will you just wana break up?

Is hard for me to make a decision.

Do you know...
Loving you is just like breathing,
how could i stop it?

love vs study = dunno!

I know you start to worry bout me...
Easily get mad at me...
When face to face with me,
you be so gentle to me...

Who can tell me how n wat to do?

坏心情.

拜六那天我们争吵了...
你连续对我说分手...要我离开你...
不知你是真心或故意...
撇开争吵的原因...
我选择离开...

在那之前,
我已经很烦恼...
爱情与面包...
该做何选择?
我不想放弃继续升学的机会...
更不想因此失去你...

我想鱼与熊掌兼得...
我知道 -不可能.

曾经问过你:
"如果我去读书,你因为孤单而爱上别人,
那我该怎么办?"
你说:
"那是你的选择,怨不得别人."

万箭刺入我脆弱的心... ='(

你又说:
"我整天都做工,休息天就在家打game...
基本上,没有什么可能...会因为孤单而爱
上别人应该是你吧?"
我回答说:
"我不知道...也许吧..."

明天就是答案公布的日子...
一切将会揭晓...

抉择.

自那天去了education fair...
我发现了一个很有趣的课程...
Nautical studies (航海学)

没有人支持我去读...
都说航海不是我想象中的那样简单...
况且又是常年生活在船上...
更加不适合女生...
尤其是结婚后无法兼顾家庭...

我不确定自己是否真的有兴趣...
一旦我选择了航海学...
一切都会变得不一样了...
我将会失去我现在所拥有的一切...
花费在form6的时间更是白费了...

我应该好好冷静想想自己要的是什么...
而不是别人要我做什么!
我的前途让我自己决定,好吗?

我怎么了?

这是否就是我所要的生活...?
老师的工作会不会不适合我?
我开始怀疑自己...
甚至自己的能力...
现在的一切一切...
跟我想象中的天差地远...

学生的叛逆...
办公室的人与事...
让我无法招架...
现实世界就是如此...
根本无法与所想象的比较...

想到我将来所要踏进的社会...
是如此的现实与残酷...
才发现我的天真...懦弱...
现在所面对的只是小小的挫折,
我已开始质疑自己...
那未来呢?

谁能教教我...??

Meaningless valentine's day.

2009年,我们度过了第4次的情人节...
今年,我过得既没意义又不开心...
就在214当天的11:59PM,
你让我流下最珍贵的眼泪...

原本我对今年的情人节,
不抱有任何期待与渴望...
就因为你在213说214会带我出去...
让我重燃希望...
还以为会有什么惊喜...
结果,真的是有惊无喜...

你不但没有送我礼物...
也没有烛光晚餐...
这些都还好...
[我了解我们的状况]
就连最基本的祝福都没有对我说...
祝福是不需要一分一毫...
需要的只是你的真心与诚意...
一句祝福胜过千言万语...

最可恶的是,
你会说214带我出去...
并不是因为情人节...而是...
约了朋友吃沙爹...[顺便带我,是吗?]
我的脸色顿时沉重...
绝对不是我小气...
因为是情人节,所以我在意...
虽然你的朋友后来没发信息来说join...
但心情被破坏就是被破坏了...

并非我发小姐脾气...
也不是非要去吃沙爹...
是为什么情人节要带你的朋友?!
最起码,先问我的意见先...

也许,是我们在一起太久了...
太常碰面黏在一起...
让你觉得情人节跟平时一样...
[因为我也有同感]
会不会因为这样,让我们不懂得珍惜对方?

[失去了才知道拥有的可贵]
真爱难寻...
要找到互相喜欢的...
更是艰难...
拥有了,就珍惜对方...
别等到失去了...
才来后悔...

愤怒!

今天...发生很多不愉快的事情...
我很:
难过...
失望...
伤心...
无助...
愤怒...

今早,我Form4H的学生...
让我流下了眼泪...
气愤的眼泪...
为什么:
上课不要好好上?
功课不要做?
都在说话聊天?
要ponteng?
你们可知道,老师准备了那么有趣的课...
带着愉快的心情准备教你们...
你们却面不改色吵了一节半...

我Form3Q的学生...
我点名时都在班上...
趁我在抄练习在黑板,偷跑出去...
有些的却在班上跑来跑去...
就在我责问一名同学为何没带课本时,
有另一名学生竟然用镜子偷窥我裙底...
还有一群学生湊热闹...
简直太过分了!
气得我跑去报告MR CHIN...

回到家跟家人说,没有任何人有在听...
他们没有任何反应...
就跟当年我六年级发生那件事一样...
后来,我学会...自己面对与承担自己的问题...
没有人会在乎我发生了什么事情...
从小到大都是这样...

i'm back!

Long times din update my blog edy...
Lately damn busy... Suckx~
Ya,i get my job dy...
Teacher...

I start teaching at 03 Feb 2009...
Many things nid to do...
Teaching, check exercise books,control classes,
write reports n so on...
Being a teacher is nt easy!

Today,my student (4s4) hide my shoe...
Zzz~ Better dun let me knw is who!
How come nowadays students tat naughty??
Can anyone tell me?!

你伤了我的心!

想起那天,你说:
"我没有收下VIVI的礼物..."
你坦荡荡的对我说,却又骗了我!
不仅仅伤了我的心,
还破坏了我对你的信任...

那天,我半信半疑听你说...
最后,选择相信你...
我以为你真的很爱我,
甚至为了我拒绝她的礼物...
原来,我太天真了!
以我对你的了解,打从开始...
我就不该相信你没有收下...

欺骗了就是欺骗了...
不必再说是善意的谎言...
伤害已经造成了...
最让我难过的是...
就连在解释的时候,
你也选择说谎,说你有还钱给她...

开始了一个谎言,
就要用更多的谎话来圆谎...
这个道理是对的...!

最可恶的是......
你竟打算把她送你的礼物
当成要送我的情人节礼物...
是女人都应该无法忍受吧?!
如果你真的送了,
我想你会被我一巴过去,
外加用那份礼物砸你!!!

是人都会说谎吧?
该原谅你吗...?
我不知道...
我只知道,不管有没有原谅你...
我的内心深处..................
已造成疙瘩...

别再欺骗我了,好吗?

To Grow With Love

内容:
这是一部关于一个来自菲律宾的胖女人(胡杏儿饰何美田)为了寻找属于自己真爱及心灵相通的伴侣二离乡背井来到香港...肥田喜欢的人(许志安饰戴喜)不喜欢她,还拥有女朋友了;而不喜欢的却又老是死缠烂打追求她...到底肥田会如何冲破重重困难和与自己心灵相通的爱人在一起呢?

评语:
对我而言,我觉得还不错...肥胖的人也有拥有爱及穿美丽衣服的权力...那幅太阳与向日葵的画,很有意思...太阳可以是日出也可以是日落...正所谓,凡事都有俩方面,只是看你怎样去看待一件事罢了...
正面与负面只是一线之差...
但是...
我是无法接受肥田介入戴喜与他女朋友(Rachel)之间的感情...毕竟他们都在一起四年了...又这样恩爱...肥田的介入与执着导致他们感情生变...我很佩服Rachel可以这样冷静的与戴喜分手...不过,总好过结婚后才发现自己的老公爱的是别人...
换做是我,四年的感情就这样没了,我会发疯的!也许还会做出什么恐怖的事情...我会恨背叛我的男朋友及介入的坏女人...
不过...
话说回来...站在肥田的立场,又不能怪她...每个人都渴望真爱...她能让戴喜改变心意爱上他,也许是证明了戴喜是不够爱Rachel的...
至于戴喜...
如果他已爱上肥田了却还跟Rachel结婚...到头来受到伤害的是三个人...说来说去还不是不能怪他...
不管他怎样做都错...
唉...我突然发现...感情里是没有对与错的...谈恋爱的风险还真高...分分钟会遍体磷伤...每段爱情的付出未必会得到结果...是你的就是你的,不是你的硬把他留在身边,受重伤的会是自己...希望这种事别发生在我身上...因为我是无法像Rachel这样冷静的...也许是会失去控制...

Accounting.

昨天是我读LCCI的第一天...
算是Short Course..
为期:5 months
费用:RM500
考试费:RM152
Book Keeping Level 1

天啊...
都是英文叻...
幸好...老师用华语解释...
老师为人还不错...
不会凶巴巴...

其实,
我是想了很久才决定去抱读的...
因为......
我是非常讨厌会计!!!
毕竟...我的头脑属于较简单...
无法接收复杂化的东西...

最后...我选择去了...
一半是为了学一技之长...
一半是有两个朋友壮胆...
[阿莲&恩慧]

上课后...
才发觉,我们三个里...
最差好象是我叻...
都不懂我的决定是否正确...

睡觉时嘴里还不停喃喃:
我是老板;家莲是公司;恩慧是会计小姐...
求神拜佛...
我的脑袋瓜转快点...
不然,肯定被家莲跟恩慧"围殴"...
唉...
真是没事找事做...

既然选择做了,
就坚持到底...
LCCI考试,就可以验收成果了...
^^

Flu.

可怜的我...
生病了...
感冒...

鼻涕...
眼泪...
不停的流下...
不停的打喷涕...

怪惨的...
别再折磨我了...
头好晕哦...
好冷哦...
[发抖]

都怪最近的天气不好...
老是下雨...
出去都淋到雨...
唉...

没消息.

日子一天一天的过了...
临教的工作一点消息都没有...
我再也不想待在家里...
不想再看我妈的脸色...

昨天去学校还书,
看到Mark Wong已经开始教书了...
他说是学校老师推荐的...
所以比较快就教书了...
羡慕...

为什么找份工作都这样难...?
为什么都没有人帮忙我...?
而当他们有事需要人帮忙,
就想到我呢??
不觉得自己很自私吗?

Interview.

今天...
是我到学校应征临教的日子...
第一次穿上正式的衣服...
让我看了都觉得怪好笑的...
感觉不是自己哦...
难得我首次这样像个女人...

才抵达学校...
就见人山人海...
才恍然大悟,原来...
应征的不只有我一个人...
应征人数高达155人以上...

我拿到的编号是81...
一组(10人)应征的时间大约45分钟...
天啊...那我不是会排到下午应征...?
心想没那么快到我,
就接受千顺的提议去统一楼吃早餐...
我们还被误认为是情侣...
害我还急忙做解释...

阴差阳错的....
让我拿到编号61...
心想说...我一定可以在早上完成应征...
岂知...
教育厅的人说...
"不好意思...我们的午饭时间要到了...
所以编号51开始的人都排到下午应征..."

终于下午了.......
到我应征了...
很奇怪的是...
下午应征的方式跟早上不同...
感觉他们只是敷衍了事...
早上他们提出了很多问题...
例如:
*我国的首相和副首相是谁?
*你申请的学校校长的国语名字?
很多很多...
下午的却只问了三个简单的问题...
1.你认为为什么你要被录取为临教?
2.身为老师,可不可以偏心? 为什么...
3.老师的衣着打扮该是怎样?

在回家的路上...
我心想...
被录取的机会会很小...
反而是早上的机会会很大咯...
虽然他们说等电话...
我想还是先找别份的工作吧...
唉...

Parade.

今天是2009年的第一天...
也是两年一度的游街大日子...
我们全家人都起的很早...
这次的游街行列只有爸爸参与...
哈哈...
[我们很懒惰哦?]

今年的游街...
是有史以来最多队伍参加的...
总共108队...
游行很慢才开始...
因为...需要得到神明的同意...
神明要游街了...
他们才可以开始走...

我还看到有人被神明上身...
就在我眼前...
吓死我了...
那人几乎不手控制...
还不停摆神明的动作出来...
[相信与否,纯属个人]

神明出游是我最爱看的...
2年后,我又可以在观赏这传统的节目...^^

Countdown.

今天是2008年的最后一天...
时间过的真快...
Hubby说今天晚上会带我去倒数...
和看烟花...
真让我惊喜又意外...

晚上...
陪妹妹看好衣服...
就到Parkcity Mall等Hubby放工...
边等边看Mall当晚所准备的节目...
OMG...
节目都很烂!
除了舞蹈协会跳的舞...
哈哈...
至于我妹最欣赏的"suffer"舞...
我本人是看没有...都不懂在跳什么...
==...==...==...==...==...==...==...==...==
终于...
12.00AM要到了...
5
4
3
2
1
BANG BANG BANG...
美丽的烟花出现在我们的眼前...
有笑脸的...有圆形的...很多很多...
Hubby就忙着录下这美丽的时刻...

看回Hubby所录的影片...
还是觉得...
现场看的烟花还是比较美丽...
希望明年还能跟Hubby一起倒数及观赏烟花...

新一年的到来,
我希望我的愿望会成真...
事事顺利...得心应手...
祝福Hubby不好的事情都远离他...
在也没有金钱的烦恼...
工作上遇到贵人提拔...
一路上升官发财...
哈哈...
祝福身边的人身体健康...^^

一份他不该收的礼物.

今天,hubby又offday了...
无意中,
我在他的电话里发现一些信息...
不经意的,
我发现VIVI前几天送了一份礼物给他...

此外,
我注意到VIVI和BETTY发的祝福信息,
或普通信息,他都会回复...
每逢什么节日,
他也都会发信息给他们,尤其是VIVI...
他曾经在凌晨12.00AM发圣诞节快乐的信息给VIVI...

当初我们刚在一起的时候,
他都会发类似的信息给我...
现在却是发别人...
我在同样是凌晨的时间发圣诞节的信息给他...
他都没有跟我说圣诞节节快乐...
我看了是如此的辛酸??
他凭什么在那样的时间发那样的信息给VIVI
而不是发给我这个女朋友...?
我很懊恼...
就这样,我一个人躲在角落哭了...
他就顾着打game没有理我...

话说回去,
那份礼物的事...
我问了他...
他说VIVI每个人都有给礼物...
但他已经把礼物退回给VIVI...
因为他说那不是他该收的礼物...
VIVI送了一个巧克力加上一个杯子...
杯子还刻有"I love you"的字眼...
VIVI还神神秘秘的把礼物锁在他的locker里...
Hubby还说,每个人的礼物都一样的...
就他的不一样...

VIVI很早就跟他说买错礼物...
既然知道自己买错礼物,
那为什么还要送出去??
这不就意味着什么吗...?

以女人的直觉,
我觉得VIVI的举动怪怪的....
我怀疑她喜欢hubby...
只是没有有力的证据证明罢了...
但hubby说没有什么的....
他就是不相信我身为女人的直觉...
他说,不会再打电话跟发信息给VIVI了...
希望他说到做到...

其实我有吓到...
他说不再打给VIVI...
是不是说他很常打给她呢...?
唉~
最气人的是,
他说不打给VIVI和发信息的原因....
不是因为怕我担心或顾虑到我的感受...
而是VIVI很少回他信息...
而且...VIVI的电话太小声...
听不到她说话...

真的气死我了...
岂有此理...
那是不是说...
如果VIVI很会回复信息,
他就会跟她msg???
VIVI电话声音大声,
就会很常打给她...?

有时候我真的不知道这个男人心里想的是什么...
甚至他还爱不爱我...
我最讨厌这种暧昧的关系...
安安份份爱一个人很难吗??
为什么我做的到,你却做不到...??
爱情就是如此的不公平...

全心全意的付出,
未必得到100%的回应...
甚至都得不到任何回报...

疲累.

这几天都很忙...
忙上忙下的...
搞的全身都很痛...
整个人好累好累...

收拾家里...
迎接2009年的到来...
旧的东西统统都丢掉...
还能用的当然留下来咯...
人家重感情嘛...

最近很多心事...
但不知道该从何说起...
也不知道要找谁诉说...
就连在部落格里,
我都不想...
甚至不懂该如何用文字描写我当下的心情...

也许会有好一段时间不会update my blog...

临教...记者...书记...

临教...
填了那么多表格...
交了那么多表格...
一点回复都没有...
其实当临教,工资优厚,工作时间短...
可以多点时间陪老公哦...
虽然工资优厚,但三个月才领一次薪水哦...

记者...
是我小学时代的志愿...
听说工资不比临教差...
或许工作时间会比临教长咯...
很多人都不支持我做...
他们说:
*需要整天往外跑...
*日晒雨淋...
*危险...
*最重要的是...我很糊涂...
怕我做不来...
我也是有点怕怕的...
但又想挑战叻...

抱馆的书记...
整天都在Office里...
他们都说女生本来就该做这样的工作...
可是我不喜欢哦...
我的性格天生就是爱往外跑哦...
工资就没临教和记者这样优厚咯...
搞不好就几百而已哦...
唉....

怎么办...
每份工作都有好有坏哦...
到底哪份工作适合我叻..?
有谁可以告诉我呢...?

Wedding dinner.

Just bak from my neighbour's wedding dinner...
Well... Quite a boring dinner...
No any interesting entertainments...
Just eat eat n eat niah...

I met with a cute uncle...
He like to say "dao li"...
But wat he said, reasonable too...
Though he loso a bit,but i agree bout wat he had said...

My mom said the bridegroom very handsome...
I disagree...
My hubby more handsome than him...
The bridegroom a bit same v my hubby...
Hiak hiak...
As slim as a bamboo stick...
The bride very beautiful...
Erm,how bout me when i get marry one day??
Will i look tat beautiful??
Haha...
[think too much]

Saw something i dun like.

Today i went to parkcity mall with ah lien...
I saw something unbelievable...
HUBBY WAS FETCHING OTHER GAL...
THEY SEEM TALKED HAPPILY IN THE CAR...
I rushed to another roadside in order to block them...
But,i din get them...

I call him ASAP...
Asked him who is tat gal!
He said he went to bank with ppl of the same work...
Yes,he ever told me tat he will send worker to bank...
Cz can claim company...

OMG...
Wat happened to me???
I worry he is going to bank with vivi...
I definitely dun like vivi from starting...
She was showing a bad manner
while i'm asking her bout a book at popular...
After searching,she just went away...
Without telling me whether got that book or not...
For me,we should not treat customers like that...
Dun you think so??

The moment i saw hubby's car got other gal...
I'M HEART-BROKEN...
He ever said:
[The right in-front passenger seat only available for me]
But now,i saw other gal sit on my seat...
I dun like...
I felt the seat was dirty...
I dun wan share my things with others...
WAT'S GOING ON WITH ME???

When hubby bak from work,
i went to his house...
I ask bout the incident...
He also explained bout it...
But i still think too much...
Scare he was lied me...
Well...
I really dunno wat's going on with me...

Why i became like that??
Why i wanna over care bout tat vivi???
WHO IS SHE???

Why?? why her again?

Hubby off again...
I found tat he msg with vivi again...
He msg her said :
[msg me if u wan me fetch u from airport]
She called him also while at Kuching's airport...

My face changed while i read the msg...
I getting down when heard she called him...
I dunno wat else should i impress...
My altitude changed suddenly...
Refuse to eat,drink n talk...

Though i act like this,he still treat me patiently...
Keep asking me wat happened???
Tot i'm sick or stomache...
Feed me eat though i say dun wan eat...
Human's endurance is limited...
Finally he said:
[u wan wat just say,dun act like this...
i tired to see n dun wan see ur face which
look like sick ppl or wanna die face]

I cried alone at toilet...
U know???
Wat u did,hurt me edy...
U knw???
U never knw it!!!
U just knw to say i think too much...
W-H-Y???

Finally i asked whether he wan went airport pick ppl??
He said "NO"... n :
[I wrote the msg like tat doesnt mean i nid to do so]
He wil oni pick them if can claim company...
He asked y i wan to think tat much???
Made myself suffer??

I dunno...
Dun u think tat u caused me think tat much??
YOU ALWAYS MAKE ME UNSECURE!!!

Sorry, Adeline....

Adeline,u angry me,rite???
I'm sorry...
For cant been ur witness...
Tat day i really nid accompany mic's family...
I cant leave them behind...
I wan give good impressions to them...

Though mic treat me nt tat gud,
always hurt me...
But,his family din hurt me...
Hope u understand me...

Why u dun wan reply my msg???
I worry...
Scare to lost u this good friends...
I dun have many friends...
Only u willing to accompany me while i sad...
Be a good listener...

I cant even sleep cz this matter...
Forgive me, adeline...
Can??

Hubby's family come...

Today hubby's family come to btu...
I had to accompany them...
[hubby was working]
I became their tour guide...
Brought them:
visited their relatives's house...
ate at Farley...
went parkcity mall...
went pasar malam...
etc...

Hubby's mom really energetic...
Wanna went here n thr...
I edy tired yet i'm younger than her...
Quite happy to accompany them...
They all friendly...

Talked lotz with szeei...
We quite matching...
Maybe age problem gua...
She really pro in playing xdo...
Interesting to see her play...

Hope they like my service...
Really scare they complain me oh...
='(

Bad LIAR...

Lied again and again...
W-H-Y???
Why u lied me that:
*Ur hp no credits liaw???
*Ur sis help u bought reload card
W-h-y x1000000..........
Is that dun wan msg v me??
Or dun wan i disturb you??
WHO AM I FOR YOU???

U made me confused...
Dunno wat else you lie me...
Dunno how to believe u...
Should i believe u again???
U really din msg v Vivi again???
Arrggh~
U make me headache...

Should i reconsider our long-term relationship???
I hate ppl lie me,especially YOU!!!
Honest is better than lying!
Maybe is i nt enough good...
Should i just let go u???
Break up???
I DUNNO............


p/s: thanks for accompany me whole nite [s***i]
i'm feeling better edy...

Love problem...

Lately too many things happened…
Just no chance for me to tell…
I’m too busy with my exam…
N my internet line got problem…

I ask hubby bout tat gal face to face…
He said tat gal is nt outlet head but cashier…
Her name is vivi…
He said they like to kacau each others niah…
Both of them only staff n no more than that…
“Disturbing” is has a dangerous meaning for me…
Disturbing will led them to the door of love…
But,I choose to believe him…

By the moment,she msg him again…
I asked who msg him…
He said character buyer…
But I din found the msg…
I kept asking…cz I know he lie me…
He delete the msg in front me…!!
i’m not tat stupid…
you know how hurt am i??
I wan break up with him…
I ever told him, honest better than lying…
Why you choose to lie??????
I cant believe you anymore…
We keep argue bout it…
I felt hopeless…cz he felt he no wrong…
He din lie…tats not lie…

You dun like I msg with guys,
Why you still msg with gals??
Dun give me any excuse tat she is admin,
Nid good a bit with her…
So this so that…
I dunno how to protect the our relationship…
I less confident on it …
I dunno wat should I do…
If can, I would like to choose being single…
I dun wan to say more bout it…
You know,
The most I ask,the more u lie…
The more I get hurt…
I feel very very very………….
TIRED…

Bored~

Today is second days of holidays…
Damn boring to stay at home…
Feel like a living corpse…
There is nothing to do…
I hate do housework compare with working n study…
When this sort of life will end???
Please get me a job ASAP…
P-L-E-A-S-E……….

Finish STPM liaw...

Today is last day for exam STPM…
I feel confused…
Happy,
Cz finish exam…
Finally holidays…
Sad,
Cz graduate = jobless…
Need find job actively…
[job difficult to find]
I pray my result will not too bad…
Pass all the subjects…
Qualify to get in university…
May God bless me…

Poor friend...

Today I receive a call from my best friend…
[I cant tell who is she,unless get permission from her]
She cried…
She keep crying…
I feel worry bout her…
She tell me that she quarrel with her boyfriend…
Cz of small kidding…
He leave her alone at the shop n go…
I accompany her…we go to beach…
1st time I see she cried sadly…
She really love him very very much…
As how I love my hubby before…
Hope they ok soon…
Dear friend,dun worry…
Dun cry too…I will also by your side…